Valentine's Day: A Personal Post

Hey everyone! I'm so sorry that I broke my promise of posting again a few days ago but I figured, "Hey, why not do a Valentine's Day comedy sort of thing?"

Psychology will be involved a bit, but that's mostly personal experience involved and its effects on depression. Mine, anyway, it'll be a bit different than someone else's.

I'm currently figuring out the next Psychology Basics installment so this is sort of filler, I guess.

So Tumblr has been putting out these horrible Valentine's Day cards and I'm printing some out to give to my friends tomorrow. The top three are included. I love all of them so, so much.

I have so many more I would put on here. Maybe at the end of this post I'll add in more of my favorites, but I don't want to overload the blog with horrible pictures just yet. Oh well - I guess it will be fine.

In my experience, Valentine's Day doesn't really effect me at all. It's kind of sad, really. Of course, up until this point I hadn't liked anybody in that way yet (Sherlock Holmes doesn't really count - or does he?) and now that I like somebody I know tomorrow might be an entirely different experience.

Otherwise, any loneliness I might experience during depression stays the same.

Of course, for somebody who prefers to be in a relationship, I can imagine it being worse. Valentine's Day may be a "Hallmark holiday" but it still gives us all an excuse to purchase each other gifts to show how much we love each other. And, of course, there is a high conception rate. Not that I care about that a lot but for many people parenting is exciting.

Anway...

as you can tell I'm a bit better than okay today. I've been kind of hyper the last few days and it came immediately on the heels of a depressive episode so I'm wondering if an "up" phase is in order. I haven't had any "happy" feelings per se...hell, it's normally irritation I experience - but I'm still feeling energetic and productive and that I can do a whole hell of a lot. 

So I guess tomorrow's "depressed and in love" experiment won't pan out like I want it to. Oh well. I guess the Valentine's cards will be interesting. Only a few of my friends out of the few I have know that I'm giving out cards but my name won't be on them so I wonder if the ones who don't know will know they came from me?

Anyway, I guess to end this pointless post I'm going to add in a few more weird cards for you all to enjoy. Until the next REAL post, these photos will serve their purpose of entertainment. Bye! (Warning: these are inappropriate and a couple contain some foul language. You have been warned.)

Personal Post #2 - Musings on the present

"I feel boxed in." -"Vicky's Box" by Throwing Muses

It's been a hell of a month for me. Well, January rather, but February is shaping up to be the same way. My mood has been mixed for such a long time I don't know what's coming next. Depressed but restless, sad yet energetic; my two halves have joined together.
I'm having trouble sleeping. I keep waking up early in the morning. Every time I do I want to go back to the blackness but I can't; once I'm up, I'm fucked.
I had a dream two nights ago about dying and it didn't bother me in the least. I haven't had urges to act on it, thank god, but at the same time it's just kind of "meh." Then again, I do frequent gore sites so I guess I'm just desensitized.
I have to go back to school tomorrow and I'm not looking forward to it. It's going to be hot, crowded, and stressful. I'm going to hate almost every minute of being there. Thank god I have friends. If I didn't I would have been found dead in a ditch somewhere by now, probably with a needle in my arm or something like that.
Okay, maybe not that horrible, but still. My friends mean a lot to me and not having any would be the death of me.

I'm sorry about the lack of posting, I really, truly am. It's very difficult to bring myself to keep up on things in my current state. I'll try to post again in the next couple of days with another Quick Overview or something like that. Don't know what it will be about but it's going to happen, damnit!

If you're reading this, have a good day. Sorry this post was so short, I just have things to do. I've been on the computer in my room all day and I have shit that needs done.